I am kind of starting to freak out.  I have 102 days left until M and I get married and suddenly I am feeling bombarded with tons of “what if’s.”  What if my hair doesn’t do what I want it to.  (Okay this really isn’t a what if and more of a when it does.)  I am a complete hair dunce so the thought of trying to get perfectly tussled, yet perfectly “fixed” hair boggles my mind.  What if I don’t look like I want to.  What if the pretty pink sash I had to have is dead to me.  I said DEAD TO ME!  (I’m not sure what’s going on with that but I’m not sure that’s the look I want right now.)  What if I wear the sash and the pin I got to hold it looks stupid with my pretty pink earrings that I LOVE?

Why does it feel like this is going to be so hard?  I mean how hard is it to put on a pretty white dress and walk down an aisle?  Apparently, if you are me, it is super hard since I’m FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have no idea where all of the stress suddenly came from.  Up till yesterday I was smooth sailing with not a care in the world.  Now it seems I am worried about the tiniest, most stupid details.  And I feel like I still have so much to do but I know I don’t really have that much left to do.  The cake topper really needs to be my priority one.  That is going to take the most time.  I worked on the layout for our menus last night and so far I am pretty happy with those.  (This reminds me I should print it while I’m at work so I can see if my layout works.)

I finished up my bridal suite sign over the weekend and now I just need a scrap piece of ribbon.  I also ordered the koozies for our guest bags.  I am just waiting for the girl to send me a proof.  I think they should look cute I just need to see how my colors are going to look together.

Maybe I’m finally coming down off all the drugs I’ve been on for the past couple of days and that is causing me to be stressed.  Who knows!  All I know is that I MUST sleep tonight.  I spent most of last night tossing and turning and wanting to scream every time I woke up to see I’d only been asleep for an hour.  I’m hoping it’s because I slept so much yesterday I really wasn’t that tired.

And in other news it seems as though the plague is spreading quickly.  M has been sick since Friday.  My boss has it.  And by the looks of a few others here at work they will also be hit by the bus soon.  Thankfully I feel better.  🙂

~k