So I am feeling sad today.  Last night on FB I saw that a childhood friend of mine passed away.  Since I have been unable to get the details, I know it was not some sort of accident.  On top of his passing, his father is in hospice and not expected to make it much longer.

I was not very close to this person but for some reason I am really bothered by his death.  I woke up several times last night thinking about him and different things that happened when we were kids.  The last time I talked to him was a few years ago over IM and email.  He had been in Afghanistan serving and on his way home he was supposed to stop in Ft Bragg for a few days.  I gave him my number and told him to call me and we’d get together.  I never heard from him and later he emailed to say things had gotten crazy when he got back and he’d lost my number.  I figured as much.  And I also figured he would try to get home as soon as he could.

It’s crazy to think of the things he probably did and saw while he was overseas only to come home and pass away.  Like I said I don’t know what happened but I have some assumptions.  To make things worse M and I were watching storm chasers last night and the show was dedicated to one of the cast members.  At the end it said he’d had a fatal accident at home and passed away a week later.  According to Internet sites he committed suicide.  He was my age.

I hope that this post will help me feel better about the situation but I’m not feeling better yet.  I feel silly feeling upset over someone I hadn’t seen in so long.  I’m just not sure why I can’t shake the sadness over his passing.

~k