I am currently 13 minutes closer to Friday!  Wow what a week.  Tomorrow is our “official” transition day at work.  Tomorrow I will officially be a voice person.  What does that mean exactly?  I have no freaking clue.  No one does really.  I can only dream of sunlight and windows on the 3rd floor.  Rumor has it our group will be moving there.  That means we will FINALLY be out of the dungeon on the first floor, you know the place where the snakes live.

Today is also moving day for mom and dad, last I heard.  I told them to let me know if they were leaving today but it just hit me I haven’t actually heard from them.  Guess I will give them a call when I leave.  With all the rain we’ve had the past few days, their plans may not be on schedule.

I am LOVING the rainy days.  It is so nice to not walk out to 90 degree weather at the end of the day.  It’s cooler and the forecast for the weekend is beautiful.   Great weekend to tailgate and watch football.  This rain has however created a leak in our house.  On the third floor, in the bathroom at the edge of the house.  I called the handyman yesterday and M was able to meet him.  The guy went into the attic but couldn’t find any visible leaks.  He pulled back some of the insulation and left it.  This morning as I was taking a shower I realized the leak was starting to spread down the wall.  GREAT!   This is not really what we need right now.  Thankfully if the handyman can find the leak I’m sure he can repair it.  And he is very reasonably priced.

6 minutes and counting.  Our queue is overflowing today at work.  Orders just keep coming in.  I think AW and I are done.  It reminds me of the scene from Poltergeist where the mom is in the hallway running and it just gets longer.  Yeah, that’s our queue.  :)  And now I’m at 4 minutes so it’s about time to wrap this up.

Hopefully I won’t wash away driving home.  🙂

~k

Last night M and I went for a walk around the neighborhood.   This is more favorable then going to the gym especially on nice afternoons.  I like out afternoon walks, when we get them, because M and I get to just talk about our days and what’s going on in general.  It’s nice to just have that time to spend together.  I know that probably seems odd since we don’t have kids yet.  But our afternoon walks are just nice.  🙂

Anyway as we were walking yesterday I heard a kitten crying, loudly.  I told M I heard a kitten and he was like, what?  No you don’t.  So I turned around and headed towards the noise.  As I got closer to the corner I realized the sound was coming from the storm drain.  I immediately began calling the kitten trying to get him to come out so I could see him.  M walked over and started shaking the keys and I went to drain across the street.  After a few minutes the little kitten finally moved so I could see him.  Finally he came out and I see these big blue eyes look up at me and then he went back in the hole.  M walked to where I was and we proceeded to lift up the storm grate.  (Please note apparently it is against the law to lift these things ;))

I climbed down the stairs in to the drain, yes I know, and tried to coax the little guy out.  After several minutes with no success M said we needed to go.  We could call animal control at home and they could get him.  I wasn’t happy about this but I knew we probably weren’t going to get the kitten out.  Plus a older man walking his dog said there were tons of ferrel cats in the neighborhood.  But this was a cute sweet kitten right?

Once we got home I called the Raleigh animal control office to report the kitten.  They promptly sent an officer out to take a look.  I met her at the spot and the kitten was still crying.  She had to take a call and when she finally walked over the kitten had stopped crying and I hadn’t seen him again.  :(  With that we decided it was time to go.  The officer said they get numerous calls about ferrel cats in that particular area and the kitten would be fine.  So I returned home kitten free.

Side note:  M told me before I left to meet animal control “You BETTER NOT bring a kitten home.”  Who me? ;)  I kid I kid.  I know another kitten is not in our immediate future.  I’m just such a softy and wanted to make sure the little kitty was okay.

~k

I love to sleep.  More importantly I love to dream.  There are some days I just want to sleep so I can dream.  Sometimes I will remember more then one dream from the previous night.  It’s weird how some of them can make you feel.  Sometimes good, sometimes bad and sometimes you get this weird eerie feeling you just can’t explain.  I prefer the good ones.  🙂

Sometimes I like to tell M about my dreams, depending on what they are.  He, on the other hand, never has dreams.  Well at least ones that he remembers.  I think they “the scientists” have decided that people dream.  As I’m typing this I am flooded with memories of old dreams.  I find it odd some of the dreams I remember or more specifically only a small portions of a dream.

When I was a kid I can remember having one particular dream, several times.  I would be in an all white room and there were large shapes though-out.  But everything was white.  Then when I would wake up I would throw up.  I don’t know the correlation, if any between the dream and my getting sick.  I just remember I would have that dream before I was sick.

There was another dream I had as a kid about a bridge.  I think I more clearly remember the dream then what happened in real life.  But I know that one day me and my parents were out riding on back-roads when we came to that bridge.  This leads me to a dream I had right before I went to London.  I dreamed I was at a beach.  Or really a house and road on the beach.  I was very surprised during our journey around London that lead to the small, quaint town of Southwold.  As we were driving up to the beach, I was hit with flashes from my dream.  It wasn’t identical but it was familiar enough that I was overwhelmed with what I was seeing.  That I had been there before.

I’m not sure what all of this means or even how I got on this subject today.  But hey, it works.  I also dream about snakes ALOT.  And alot of snakes.  I have no idea what these dreams represent and google hasn’t offered much either.  The funny part is the snakes never hurt me, nor do I seem to be scared of them (think Indiana Jones in the snake pit snakes).

Well this turned in to an odd blog today.  🙂

~k

I will try to not get into a rant about how my day is going so far.  I just annoyed and really would prefer to be curled up in bed and not working.

Anyway, this weekend was pretty good although it got off to a rough start.  M and I met mom and dad for an early dinner.  Mom had to pick daddy up from the airport and she brought down the bar stools and my old wedding dress.  I have to say that this has been the first time in a while that I kind of felt like I was hanging out with my “old” parents.  Things were light-hearted and more relaxed.

After they left to head back, I decided a little wine was in order.  After a couple of glasses I decided to put the bottle in the fridge.  I grabbed a stopper we had in the drawer.  The stopper was a little big but I figured it would go in.  And just then CRASH!!!!!!!!  Wine bottle falls to the floor and on the way down hits my big toe.  At first I’m just standing in the kitchen watching the wine pour from the bottle, then the pain hits.  My toe is throbbing with pain and I am holding on to the counter.  I can’t move.  I begin to cry and I’m still standing there doing nothing.  M finally walks into the kitchen to see what’s going on.  I manage to get bottle and toe out.  He picks me up and carries me to the couch, grabs some ice for my foot and cleans up the mess.  I still have no idea how the bottle hit my toe but it’s still sore today.

I love M for so many reasons and Friday night was one of them.  He takes care of me all the time.  Thank goodness because someone has too.  🙂

Saturday was a much better day.  I had my hair appointment scheduled so now I have highlights.  I’m still trying to decide what I think about the darker more highlighted me.  It doesn’t look bad, just different.  On my way home from the salon I turned the radio on to the NC State game and was home by the end of the first quarter.  NC State looked really good on Saturday and pulled out a W against Georgia Tech.  This puts State at 4-0 and currently ranked at #23.  Auburn on the other hand looked like crap Saturday night.  Somehow, they managed to win and move up in the polls.  We still have a lot of work to do though.  All in all two teams at 4 – 0 ranked in the top 25 is a good day.

~K

Another day has gone by and we (the ones in my group) still have heard nothing about our futures.  And by nothing, I mean exactly that.  All we have are assumptions.  One of which is that we will all be apart of install.  Had I wanted to do install I would have applied for that position a year ago when I was dying to get out of billing.  Now all I know is that my current position should be eliminated.  When?  No idea.  No one will tell us anything and frankly I’m starting to get more and more annoyed.

I woke up at 3am this morning and began wondering what was going to happen.  I decided I would ask if it would be okay to contact some higher ups in hopes of more answers.  This didn’t go as planned when a co-worker decided to join me.   So now I’m sitting here with little focus trying to push out a few orders but mainly waiting for my parents to call so I can leave.

My dad is flying in today and M and I will meet them for dinner.  Then they will head back to RR to start getting ready for the move next week.

I guess I find some comfort in the fact that there are others not happy about this either.  And that I’m not alone in my current thought process.  Not that it does me any good.  I have a feeling there will be a lot of discussion between M and myself and what I want to do.

When I get nervous or worried I pick at my cuticles.  For the past month of so they have looked pretty good.  My life has been pretty calm.  If you saw them today, well let’s just say they are a mess.  If it weren’t for my hair appointment in the morning I’d probably go home and hit the bottle.  But I have to be at the salon pretty early.  Thankfully they serve wine.  🙂

Nothing like chaos to throw you off your game.  Or game plan as it were.  Now what.  If only I were a good enough photographer, this would be a great time to start my own business.  Oh well.  We’ll see what happens.

~k

I’ll warn you that today’s blog will probably turn into a complete bitch fest.  So proceed with caution or stop reading now.

Yesterday we had an all-hands meeting at work.  We were only told about this late Tuesday afternoon.  The email said the company was looking to make positive changes and there would be no lay-offs, this was not a restructure or reorganization.  Can we say BS?  There were no lay-offs.  That part was correct, however restructure/reorganize is EXACTLY what they are doing.  While I’m not opposed to the new structure of the company, I think the execution deserves a big FAT F!  We were given about 5 minutes to process the fact that we will be divided by services.  They passed out hand-outs with what “group” you would now be in and then broke us into our groups.

My question is, what will my new job be?  How much are you going to pay us now?  Who decided what “group” you were?

Unfortunately none of those questions were asked or answered yesterday.  I feel like I am in grade school again.  You walk into class and after a few days you are broken up into groups, like the Red Bird group or you are Blue Bird.  WTF?

I don’t even feel like I can get any cohesiveness to this blog right now.  I thought the words would pour out but that’s not really happening.  So I guess I will return to doing as little work as possible today.  Seems as though no one really has any focus so I’m not alone.

~k

First and foremost, Happy Birthday M!  I love you!  Secondly I really hope your cake this year tastes as good as it looks.

Yesterday I said I would talk about the ghosts of birthday cakes past.  Today I will post the pics.  The good, the bad and yes the UGLY!  Let me also say that I LOVE to bake.  I really do.  I’m not sure where this love came from but if there is baking to be done, I’m in.

M’s 30th birthday.  I was really excited that I was going to make him a cake, we’d only been dating a few months and I was excited to show off my skill.  Of course I told him, “I’m a GREAT baker.”  However his birthday happened to fall right in the middle of my move.  My mom had already moved my kitchen stuff to the townhouse but I was still in my apartment.  When I discovered my baking tins were at the townhouse I decided to just run to the store instead of across town.  I found some silicone forms for about $3.00 each and I was sold.  I went home and started baking.  Everything was going pretty well until I tried to remove the cakes from the forms.  They basically fell apart.  I tried to save them but well, as you can see……disaster.  Oh and the frosting pretty much went south too.

This will forever be referred to as the grand canyon cake.  In my defense, the thing was pretty tasty.

M’s 31st birthday.  I decided to get creative, I mean come on anything has to be better then the grand canyon right?  I talked to a friend from HS who started baking to get a fondant recipe.  Since M loves red velvet I decided to cover it in fondant.  Little did I realize red velvet is a pretty soft cake.  Hence the 31st cake.

Not a horrible first attempt at fondant and it wasn’t actually that bad.  But as you can see the cake didn’t support the weight very well.

All of this brings us to M’s 32nd birthday.  I told him that I wasn’t doing ANYTHING fancy this year.  Just a cake.  So he said he would like carrot cake.  I’ve never made carrot cake.  Nor have I made carrot cake from a box.  I baked the cake last night, let them cool and then iced them.  The cake looks pretty nice.  Now if only it tastes good too.  I guess we will find out tonight.  *Crosses fingers*   Wish me luck.

As you can see my cake making skills vary, a lot.  I’ve actually made him several cakes over the years.  All of which put the grand canyon cake to shame.  I still blame the crappy silicone forms but hey, what’s done is done.

Here’s to a great birthday and a wonderful cake!

~k

Last night, armed with my new stamps and paint brush, I went home and began working on my project.  This actually lead me to start working on a similar project for our wedding.  Hopefully tonight I will finish both projects and I can move on.  Thankfully I’ve stopped stressing about it so much and I’ve moved on to other things to worry about.

Now I am concerned with things like seating charts (which I HATE), place cards and menus, AHHHHH!  I just told M that we would need to have another conversation with the wedding coordinator soon.  I think that for someone who procrastinates about almost everything I have this wedding planning stuff down.  Honestly I can’t believe how on top of all of this I am.  I guess it doesn’t hurt reading the boards and seeing girls who are still a year or so out and they are already planning.   So I guess this has kept me on top of everything.

Speaking of, on top of things, my roots are AWFUL.  I talked to M a while back about switching from all over color to highlights.  For years I’ve wanted to only highlight my hair but never really had the means to fund my wish.  Now that we are living together I feel better about spending some money to do this.  Originally I scheduled highlights for the middle of October but since I’m already 8 weeks or so into this color I am dying here (hehe get it?).  I decided I couldn’t wait until October and re-scheduled for this weekend.  I have no idea exactly what is going to happen.  Or for that matter what I am going to look like when I come out.  Hopefully a darker more highlighted version of myself.  And hopefully it will look good.  EEEEEKKKK!

One other thing I have to do tonight is make M’s bday cake.  Crossing fingers.  Tomorrow I will tell the story of birthday cakes past.

~k

For the last couple of hours I’ve had this tightness in my chest.  It makes it hard to breathe at times.  I know it’s just anxiety and it will go away.  And I wish it would hurry up.  I’m starting to get annoyed.  I’ve tried deep breathing and I can’t seem to shake it.  Since I know I have issues with this I’m not completely freaked out just bothered mainly.

A couple of weeks ago a blogger I read was talking about her bouts of anxiety.  Specifically she was talking about the night before when she couldn’t sleep.  It is nice to know others  have issues like this too.  I’ve talked to my doctor about it and she said that once my sinus infection clears up and I can breathe again then we would talk about my anxiety.

Today my anxiety is linked to a wedding related project I am working on.  Actually I am working on something for someone else and I am worried that it is going to SUCK!  I ended up running to Michael’s at lunch to look for some stencils.  I didn’t find exactly what I was looking for.  But anything has to be better then my failed attempts of painting words.

I’m sure it doesn’t help that last night my dreams were consumed with invitations.  I already have my invitations but I ran across something last night that gave me an idea.  Apparently my brain went into overdrive while I slept because I started out with pink invites and when I woke up they were green and white.  HA!

Even just reading back over my blog about this project makes my chest tighten up.  Why is this stressing me out?  I’ve been doing DIY stuff for months now and NOTHING has had me this worked up.  Ughh!  Maybe some good ole’ fashion work – as in my job – will help.

~k

Last night was the NC State v Cincinnati game.  M and I both left work early in order to tailgate for a while before the game started.  Hence no blog yesterday.  We didn’t get home until 11:30 and I was ready for bed.  I must say that State looked really good last night.  There were some errors but overall the team looked good.  I was really expecting Cincy to pound State but their team isn’t what it was a few years ago.

Needless to say I am extremely tired today.   My eyes feel like someone rubbed sandpaper over them.  Other then being tired I don’t feel too bad though.  Which is good.  My head feels a bit better and I haven’t had a headache since I got my antibiotics and nose spray.  I did notice yesterday that our bedroom fan is VERY dusty so it looks like I will be cleaning that this weekend.

One of M’s college friends is coming town today so I have a feeling the weekend is going to be busy.  And really I think I just want to sleep.  Maybe an early night and a nap today will help.

***Side Note – I apologize my blogs are so boring lately.  My life is obviously very boring right now.  Maybe Julio will do some cute things that I can blog about.